Monday, August 22, 2011
FUCK, today got econs paper, normally i wont post anything unless i feels really unhappy and stuff..Its been long, very long since the last time i felt this way, i thought i have already started a new life, totally forget about the feeling..
the feeling of being the lousiest among the gang... it makes u feel unwanted, feel lower ranked.
i know many of you would say things like "why are u so self-centered" or "why do you always think how others thinks of you".
but the think is, this feelings naturally comes..
MST was still ok, but after today, when i totally screwed the economics paper, i was like WHAT THE FUCK...
i know i might be able to blame it on my fever... my body wasnt feeling very well.. i feel feverished and stuff... and my brain just couldnt process much...
BUT EITHER way, the results is there already
Being among he crowd that says "the paper is quite easy" or "Aiya, should be able to get 90" the feeling just sucks when u know you have screwed the paper... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
FUCK IT SERIOUSLY
JJ was here 3:42 PM
Sunday, April 24, 2011
I love you Loh Wai Chi :)
ok, thisis super weird, i know its been so long since i last posted on this thing... its just that, somethings i feel that maybe a dairy would actually really help..
First of all, ive got into INTERNATIONAL BUSINESS in SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC. though wasnt the course of my first choice, its was pretty cool nonetheless... people keep studying and things got stress
Waichi and i are still together and to say the truth, i still love her all the same, but she gave me thi feeling that she saw an end coming... i have no idea why.. but wad i can do now is to make her feel that theres no end to us, we can be together all we wan!
maybe im gonna make a few changes... change to myself... when she sms, reply immediately and stuff...
things wont end up the way it will...
thats wad i believe, I Could never everlet a cute girl walked right out of my life...
JJ was here 3:22 PM
Saturday, June 26, 2010
there might just be a reason why i was born on independence day. Maybe the thing is that, i just have to be more independent.maybe i shouldnt rely too much on anybody.. hahaha!
Set!, i am gonna be an independent kid from now on yea!
JJ was here 6:31 PM
Friday, June 25, 2010
ok, i got it, im selfish....Zi Han's birthday nobody attended, then i pekcek and pissed
My Fault because i didnt think of why other people cant go and blah blah blah
I didnt get my desired post and i got pek cek and pissed
My Fault because i didnt work hard enough
People dont listen to me after trying 3 or 4 times
My Fault because i didnt try again 5 or 6 times
I can go out alot and u all cant, even on important days liek celebrating frens birthday
My Fault because i dont have a parents that cared alot about me.
I pissed because engleng dun wanna celebrate zi han birthday because he wanna slack at home.
My fault because im selfish not to let engleng slack at home.
OK, IM FUCKING SORRY.
FUCK. HATE SEC 4! WHERES THE FUN AND ENJOYMENT IN SEC 2 AND 3s?
i now then realised, i told u my problems and u seemed like a good listener, you seem like u understand me... then nod ur head... sometimes give me advice blah blah blah... talk in a nice tone and manner..
then when u go home, u curse and swear and me, saying u are speechless... ok lo, then i am speechless also.
I understand that im selfish, i have no leadership, not smart, proud and whatever happens is all my fault and im the cause of everything. OK, I got it.
Thanks for all these, its enough lerh.
i seriously think u have changed. i think i no longer wants to tell u my problems.
JJ was here 9:18 PM
Sunday, June 20, 2010
seriously, today is really a very bad bad day for me.
In the morning, we were suppose to meet at 8:00am at the GAG's house.
but then because i slept at 3:00 am yesturday, i overslept and woke up at 7:45
seriously, i jumped out of bed leh LOL!
okok... so then, The GAG's mum took car and etch me from lakeside. And then off we go to Suntec City COnvention Centre!
WIth high hopes, we went in. It was like 9:45 and we see alot of promising robots from other countries, including taiwan, portugal, china, japan.. ahahaha
the robot look promising, but their people dont look promising, they look retarded.
Then we waited till 10:15 for traven loh to come, then he went to register..
Then the this register lady said :"u all havent paid yet, i cannot allow u all to register"
then traven was like " o.0"
then yea, so we waited while traven made callss.... blah blah blah...
until 10:55 whereby the opening ceremony starts. all the team went up to their booths and we are the only teams downstairs.
So basically we skipped the whole of opening ceremony... then to cut the long story short, at 12:15, it is concluded that our registration fail as it required DBS bank receipt or something and thanks to today is sunday, all DBS banks were closed! wow!
then we took the robots, went to food republic and eat lunch, the food sucks.
zzz. I called my mum and told him that i cant make it back to my gramps house to eat lunch.
WHICH is very important because it was like suppose to celebrate father's day with my grandpa.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
then totaally sian. then wewalked around suntec to find hoodie, end up failed to get any.. then i went to buy my dad's glove...
Size: 26, thats what my dad told me, but 5 mins ago his size suddenly become 24..lol, tmr have to go change.
ok.. then we went to queensway to find hoodie. Thanks the engleng's effective guide, we took around 1 hour to get from suntec to queensway. Zi han mum's actually came and brought us there, but enlgeng that stupid guy guide wrong way.
i slept in the car and i drooled. lol
Then we went to the GAG's house to continue programming, process was kinda smooth, no setbacks, very tired..
then when i came back home. my mum told me that my grandma and grandpa should no go to watch my competition.
My grandpawas handicapped, he had to sit of wheelchair. then it would be inconvenient for him to go..
but my grandpa wants to go.. then zzz
then my mum like want me to call them and tell them they all cannot go, then i was like "WTF"
zzz
i seriously hope my gramps could go
after awhile of conflicts and confusions.
my grandma said that she will go, and like will try to hide from my grandpa, say something like no ticketss or something...
i listen liao, dunno why i feel like crying...
zzz sianz... dont wan to post anymore, let pictures do the talking.. zzz
Before i go, i want to say that wai chi is noob + pig
= Pigachi / P chi! lol! xD
JJ was here 11:27 PM
Thursday, June 17, 2010
ok, alot of things to say... hmm lets start from where?Ok, so dunno how long ago, i was pretty pissed with engleng because i actually asked him which is more important, "Friends" or "studies" and he actually said "depends"
I was like OMG
OK.. hmmm abit regret joining Robocup because it took away all my holidays and i dont even have time for revision. Think gonna totally flunk my GE 1 can...
Erm.. Yup, the wai chi's stuff :):) yay! 0906! 4D number, should have asked my mum to buy that day, might have won.. but i bet my mum will nag and nag and nag, so didnt buy it.
And then wai chi keep on nagging asking to see my blog.. lol
THEN!
she suddenly said something like : "i think about it and i feel that if you dun wanna show me thne nvm, cause its quite personal"
then now dunno why she suddenly nagged at me again to see my blog... lol! pigachi.
So competition is next week and engleng's temper suddenly went up like crazy... make our life miserable only can.. lol
HMM, eugene and kevin came my house.. they say wan study, so end up studying abit... revised A math... woohoo, found out alot of things i dunno... but managed to revise quite alot.. but today i do practise and i found 3 consecutive questions i dunno how to do .. zzzz
then played PS2, Billard and i lost to both of them.. zzzz
yesturday night skipped dinner... then i told wai chi that ive eaten to prevent her from nagging... lol feel so bad..
today morning skipped breakfast... eaten corn that engleng forced ding feng to buy... then skipped lunch...
Went out with waichi to study.. lol! i think that we never really study much because i very hungry, cant concentrate, then make until waichi also cannot concentrate..
Ate Tori q... trying to make fren with a small boy but wai chi dun let.
yup.. skipped tuition...
Tomorrow i dun wan go CCA!
gonna buy father's day present... lol!
OK nothing else liao.. Bye Bye
JJ was here 8:59 PM
Sunday, June 13, 2010
YES! I DID IT! WOHOOO!!!!THIS IS THE HAPPIEST MOMENT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!
WAICHI ACCEPTED MY PROPOSAL! WOHOOO
OMG OMG OMG omg omg omg
I NOW THEN REALISED WHAT I HAVE BEEN THINKING ISNT TRUE, ITS NOT 1 SIDED AFTER ALL...
SERIOUSLY, LOL
I NEVER FELT SO HAPPY BEFORE WITH SIEW BEE AND QIAN HUI LAST TIME
NOW I UNDERSTAND WADS WITH HARD TO COME, HARD TO GO
I WILL CHERISH HER!!! MAKE HER HAPPY! WOHOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
09/06/10! WOHOOO
oh btw, happy birthday to zi han and syafie!
JJ was here 11:07 PM